been trying my best these days to finish all work..
from assignments, presentations,Chinese, BULATS and Stanford operation team activities..
i dont know how and why can i handle all...
i work much on day, if not at home doing my assignment then maybe at uni or some event companies to operate for SEADS
have i ever told you about it?
SEADS : Southeast ASia Development at Stanford is a program that is gonna be held this coming August. At the very first time, my friend Hieu advised me to sign up for volunteer, and now i'm in operation team (while Hieu is in Marketing team"
My team is quite funny but really hard working..
at the 1st sight... actually ive met them all twice or three times... they are the best students of all university in HCMC
that's why i begin to feel like i'm such a small one, with not many talent or skills when being with them..
anyway, maybe it should not be a big problem with me?
really i admire them all, and we'll go straight form now till the end of the program..(or more?- who knows)
everything seems so easy when you look at it outside
but the thing is that when you get inside and involved in, there are much many problem that you havent imagined before...
We have to operate for the whole program this August, from the biggest to the smallest..
and 1st we have to find a suitable event company to get a contract with..
our journey begins.. those hard working days of finding event companies..
Now i just wish that August came right tomorrow when i wake up, and so we can enjoy our show without any more hard work>.<
August comes..
But then what if August comes?
He said that he would get married in August...is it true?
if it is.. so then, i hope it wont come...
i dont know how to face up with it
let me work harder and harder rather than make August come
so SEADS work, school work, now i have BULATS , sometimes lot of pressure ...
Pressure? maybe from my dad? or just from me myself?
Sometimes it's so stressed that my head is gonna explode...
sometimes i just cannot bear them all
my mind, work, study, him... keep spinning around and around..
so i try my best to work..
even cannot resist laziness..
but still i cannot rest at night...
the promise...
i keep it in my mind and always pray...
very rarely do i have free time.. but whenever i have.. then sorrow and regret come...
i'd better keep it for myself.. and not spread it out.. so that no one can get hurt from it..
am i torturing myself?
better so...
hope that i'm not that kinda workaholic...
hope that i'm not going to change myself..
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