time goes by...

It's been over a month.. since last time we talked..
since last time we said last words to each other..
i dont know why i still remember all things between you and me.. clearly in my mind..
where are you now?
are you happy? or still suffering along with her?
i miss your voice.. and also miss all the things you told me.. even they are such jokes..
i miss you much, olive!
if it is surely too late..
then i just wish to turn back the time
so i wouldnt have been so regretful now..
i tried my best to get out of this
since when that i've become a workaholic?
but just when i have a little time for myself.. then i think much about you..
i'm sorry to say so..
it's like illusion that comes to me
my 20th birthday...
remember last year when you sent me a wish.. how happy i was..
dont you know it's the only one wish that i wanted on that day..
now my 20th birthday without your wish..
do you still remember my birthday?
i wonder..
hanging around and see how many things that ive missed... through the time we are together..
maybe this life is worth living... for 20 years i'm in
maybe i continue to live like this...
maybe i'll turn crazy if there arent any more work for me to do..
but one thing i'm sure that i love you..
and someday i'll come,
some day i'll meet you, just to give you a smile, just to say " hi" to you
and seni seviyorum
zeytin...
i wish you were the one to read this..
but i know you are never here..., never be mine...
i wish youre happy.. and always get my blessings
lilcucumber