something....

i can feel something not good now..
missing someone?..maybe...
i wonder how long i have suffered from this...
why im still thinking about him?/
he's backed ..but doesnt send me any mail...
sometimes..i just want to leave him there..forever..
but i cant... i'm still missing him..all the time i think about him..
even i havent sent him any mail..but i always hope that he'll be the 1st one to send mails to me..why so?
i know what he wants...and i know what he hates too..
it sounds so hopeless...
i met his friends few mins ago.. Ahmet and Polly have got a good news.. a baby willcome to this life at the end of this year...
somehow i feel a little bit blue,even i'm also really happy for them..
congratulations ...
i just could ask Ahmet about him in some questions..no alsmost a question..i asked him 'have you got any news from olive?'
i hid all my feeings
i havent told Ahmet what i feel about Olive..
also..i dont want to tell him..even Ahmet is his best friend..
ill forget..forget everything...about Olive..
but the only one i want to tell you, Olive, is that i'm really happy cause youve grown up...youve found a new job, i always wish all best wishes for you..for your life..wish youre happy ...
may Olive never read these lines