to Give, Not to Receive

It is hot and humid ever... these days..

She went to class today, thought he wouldnt come.

Chit chatted with friends.. and saw him in the back seat.
Wondering if it was accidentally, they their shirts had the same color.
And accidentally, it was the shirt she gave him.
It was not, actually any kind of present, just simply a shirt she wore once, and she gave him back as she told him she might not use it.

This reminds her
some stories when people said about give and receive... and so living this life, you should give , and not expect to get something in return, rather than just wait to receive anything back in hopelessness.

She read them. She knows it. She gave. A lot (Is she such a selfish girl to mention those here?!)

And suddenly, she felt not right.
When youre giving something to someone, you always hope to get something in return... that's true.
But now, at this time, she felt miss her feeling of receiving something more than ever..
So long she hasnt got that feelings... even though people around her know how much she needs...

But thing that she needs seems so unrealistic..
Her crush is not crush on her
He has found his love somewhere

And now she keeps the words in her mind : to give but not to receive..