What the hell are you waiting for?

no..i dunno what i'm waiting for now..no friends..no mails..no contacts..
it's changed ...all..
today like everyday i woke up late..cause i'm on my holidays..but nothing to do..
then i'm online and chacked mail..but noone's there also..
sigh..just need someone to chatwith..but couldnt..
it's so boring...*how many times have i said these words?!*
i want to send him a mail..but when the pagecomes..i changed my mind no..i wont send him any messages.
ive promised to myself that if he didnt send offline messages to me..illl never contact with him..
maybe ill feel better....ok ok forget it
next weekis new year right?
then i wish everybody will have a veryvery happy new year !!!!

Xmas Blue

hic yesterday ive post one..but just a draft..so try to post a new one..
yeah yeah..it's really blue yesterday...
and today the weather isnt good enough also...rain rain rain..why is it always raining?
ive just met Khanh today...noone else...
now he's gone eating..and me ..here to post some lines
ive finished my exams...i did my best ...
but dont know what the result is...hope that it will be good...
yeah..i know that still now noone has read all of these ...just try to post..even noone reads it..i will read it by myself...
hic...just wanna cry maybe.....
i really miss my friends..my friends...and also him....how can i stop thinking about that?
ok.. let me tell you what i have done today

...ive gone shopping and bought some cards with Phuong..
also..ive bought a new wallet for me...(it's the present i bought for myself...yeah merry Xmas..cucui!)
then have nothing to do..stayed at home and sleep...
hic mom will blame me if she sees her daughetr sleep too much like this..
sleeping makes me comfort and dont feel blue anymore
k..i think that's enough..today..cause i dont have anything to write..

everyone's happy right?

now i'm listening to a song..what is it name?..ah 'i will still loving you''
i feel better now maybe..when i see that everyone's still safe and has happy life like me..
thanks my God again..that we can live in peace
in this life..sometimes..you have happiness sometimes you have sadness..but God always chalenges you..like the way that he chalenges me..
sometimes..i feel so tired.. He brings me my friends..my love.. but then makes me cant do anything for them..let them down..even i dont want so..
have you ever loved somene but you cant say that you love them?
it's so hard for you..even it's on the tip of your toung ..
just becauseyou dont want to hurt him or her...
but if you keep your feelings in your mind ..it will kill your heart
sometimes i wanna cry..and i cry a lot to feel better.. after crying..you will feel better..your tears comfort your heart maybe..(why?)
ive lost my chance once or twice....i dont rememebr..again and again..
just when i got a chance..i lost it..even i had expected it so much..
i hurt myself..maybe..instead hurting him...i will bare it...

bad day

i dont know why..but today ..i feel so bad..maybe because i didnt meet my friends..(include him)..
even though i still met Khanh today..ha ha..he was late for his class just ebcuase chatting with me abot his friend..
poor khanh..
i think the only reason makes me feel bad today is i dint meet him..the one makes me angry all days..
he said that he had changed city(change city?)..i dunno ...
my exam begins before xmas..ill fin it before xmas also...oi now i just wish i can pass it and have a long long holidays..
this week i still have a lot of tests to do..hic hic..oh i'm so lazy..
anybody tells me what to do?...
thanks again Khanh for making me feel a little more good..

rain rain all day

yeah..they saay that the rainy seaosn will end before the end of this month..but it still rained too much..
rain always makes me feel blue..i wonder why..^ ^
last week there were a lot of things happenned to me
last Thursday..when i came home, dad said i had a letter,the letter informed me that i had got a postal matter..
1st i just thought it was a big gift..from friend..(am i so greedy?)..but after that i became very disappointed..it's just some files about a uni's information..hic..maybe it's because i had expected so much...
the day after that day..on last Friday..another thing happened..
when i was doing the washing up..a little bird fell off in the back yard
i just thought it had died..(before falling off)..
but then i found out it's still alive..i, at that time didnt care that it had H5N1 virus or not,brought it to the balcony..and left it there..when i finished my houseworks..and went up stair agin..i see that its still there..like like it wanted to give me a thank..
after that it flew away..
i always think about that..little bird.. little bird if you give me a wish..then i wish i can pass all my exam..if you give me another wish..then i wish i can travel around and meet all my friends..
but will you give me a wish?
i just want only one!
that's the two things of lot things that happened last week..
maybe i'm too busy today. and just can post only a blog today..

complex relationships

Actually that..my net relationships are really complex..
and i cant sovle all of them..
Mani! maybe you will understand this!
at 1st i didnt beleive in online love..but just when i met them..Ahmet and Polly.. i know that there's a love online like that..
Ahmet is a Turk and Polly is Chinese.. but thatve met online.. and love each other though..
it happened like that..till now i think it's so wonderful!
but then i think that theyre so lucky..that they can come and meet each other also.. can say how they feel..
it's so hard for me to explain maybe..
but i have a love online like that..or just simple i like him..
when we meet .arguement ,sad ness and happiness.. are all we have..but i know that we can never get closer..for our differences and our distance...

my net friends..

ive been signing in since last June..it's been more than a year now..
at 1st i just wanted to improve my english when i come here..
but then i found out that ive met a lot of good friends here..
i think i have to thanks my God..He brings all of you to me.. good friends..as i beleive in you..
i have a closed friend online.. Mani...i used to call him so... i have met him a long time ago..sometimes..i think maybe i like him though..
but after meeting another one..i know that it's not my real feelings..
or maybe that's because i'm a teenager. somethimes i dont know what i feel also..
now ive met a lot of friends online now..guys and girls...
and usually chat with Khanh,Mani and Olive..also Ahmet and Polly..
theyre really nice to me....theyre from every part of the world
i consider them as my real friends.. and also..always wish good things to them
again thanks my God cause He has brought them to me

my family...

i have a bigfamily..with 2 elder brothers and a little bro..
theyre really nice to me and love me..
but maybe ..because theyre older than me 6 years old .,they have never ever cared with i think or what i feel..
that's why i always advise my friends..the one who has little sis..to take care of her more..
dont ever make her feel as sheis just alone..
when xmas or lunar new year comes.. people often when out for shopping..but at that time i'm at home and watch TV
rarely do they go some where with me..
for me i love my eldest bro mst..he's sometimes really nice to me..takes care of me...although he has to do a lot of works..he still studied well and took a scholarship to Australia..he's my idol..as you can say..


my mum has some problem with her left leg.. like that she cant go anythere with me.. but she's the only one makes me feel happy in this life.. for all things she's passed ..she's the one that i should take after maybe...

dad is really strict to me.. as he's my teacher..all..he wants me to do things harder and harder
like that i can do everything or i'm a parfect girl..but he does take care about me..and wants me to have a better life when i grow up..
that's why im always greatful to him for all thing..

above all..my family isnt a perfect one..but i like it..
Father And Mother I Love You!

my busy school year

as everyone know ..this is my last year in high school..that's why i have to try my best at school
phuu..my 1st half semmester result is really good.
at school i dont have so many friends..but theyre really kind to me
Phuong, Tu , Thanh ,Thi...
but i havent gone out with them before..maybe because i'm unactive..
but when they need anything..they just give me a call..then ill help them as much as i can

Even though..i still feel very bad sometimes..like that i'm tha only one live in this world..
maybe i have to make up my mind someday..if i live like this..i will never getany chance...
Co gang len nao!..nhoc oi!

My 1st blog

After reading my friend's diary..i think now i have to creat my own blog also..
it's been long time since i 1st read his blog..
maybe too shy to blog up till now..
i post my blog here to all of my friends..or just a few too.see what i feel and what i have done in a week
hope you all enjoy it!